God,
I cry out to you. The tears are streaming down my face. I have lost all hope and am in a massive pit of dispair. I know my life is to do your bidding but I am ready to give up. How many years must I continue to give up my hopes and my dreams and my life to be a loving care giver for a man with the mind of a 2 year old and the iron will of a 90 year old.?
Is two years enough? Done that. Is five years enough? Done that! Is eight years enough? Done that! When will it end? Or will I be like my friend D****** who served a spouse for 20 years and died still serving? D****** never got free. Is that to be my fate also?
I know I have to envision my husband as Jesus Christ. Once I do that then serving him will be a joy and honor because I am truly serving Jesus. But I have lost that vision, Lord. Please help me!! I beg you, Lord. Help me!
Amen
I cry out to you. The tears are streaming down my face. I have lost all hope and am in a massive pit of dispair. I know my life is to do your bidding but I am ready to give up. How many years must I continue to give up my hopes and my dreams and my life to be a loving care giver for a man with the mind of a 2 year old and the iron will of a 90 year old.?
Is two years enough? Done that. Is five years enough? Done that! Is eight years enough? Done that! When will it end? Or will I be like my friend D****** who served a spouse for 20 years and died still serving? D****** never got free. Is that to be my fate also?
I know I have to envision my husband as Jesus Christ. Once I do that then serving him will be a joy and honor because I am truly serving Jesus. But I have lost that vision, Lord. Please help me!! I beg you, Lord. Help me!
Amen
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